Anonymous
Where my life has taken me
I don’t even know where to begin.
I’m the most fucked up person I know. Over the past month or so I have managed to completely shatter the friendships I’ve tried so hard to keep together. I’m not this helpful and understanding person that I thought myself to be; I’m more of a judgmental creep who only has underclassmen for friends because everyone else my age refuses to even acknowledge me.
Oh, did I mention that I’m a creep? It’s not like I haven’t heard that all my life. It just so happens that one minute I’m someone’s best friend, and the next thing I know they want nothing to do with me?
I’m not going further with this now.
I hate living like this. I’m tired of living every day with all of this bullshit built up like this. I hate waking up and have to realize that the few people that even fucking care about me anymore don’t even want me around. I’m sick of the cutting and burning and drinking that I do to distract me. My life is so fucked up and I can’t keep myself in control. I don’t want to live like this. I don’t want to do this anymore. I just want to have a normal life where I don’t have to fake my emotions to everyone just to get through the day and repeat that cycle over and over.
I don’t want to deal with myself anymore.
